As I was driving home from Confirmation class last night I heard the new Fergie song on the radio called "Fergalicious" and I thought it would be funny to put my name in the place of Fergies name for some of the lyrics...It's good stuff. It's just bits and pieces, but here is what it would look like with my name and some lyrics cut out of the song!
BECKALICIOUS
Beckalicious definition make them boys go loco
I ain't easy, I ain't sleazy
I got reasons why I tease 'em
Boys just come and go like seasons
Beckalicious (Beckalicious)
But I ain't promiscuous
And if you was suspicious
All that s**t is fictitious
I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh)
That puts them boys on rock, rock
And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got
I'm the B to the E, C the K the Y
And can't no other lady put it down like me
That was fun, wasn't it?!! Just a little break in the day to put a smile on your face!!
Also, yesterday at lunch I went and bought the Mat Kearney CD, Nothing Left to Lose. It's a good one. But of course, I only buy good CD's. I'm waiting for next year for the Sick Puppies CD to come out because that one is going to be out of this world AMAZING! I recommend both of them!
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Go Ahead, Tell me You'll Leave Again
Lying in my bed trying to fall asleep is when I come up with all these exciting things to write about in my blog the next day. And as soon as I sit down in front of the computer to let it all come out...I'm just blank. That drives me crazy. It even keeps me up at night because I have all these great ideas, and I try to come up with interesting way to write about them...I need to start keeping a notepad by my bed.
One thing that has really been bothering me, and I know it shouldn't but I can't help it...is the age difference between people in relationships. I know eventually it doesn't matter, my parents are 5 years apart, my best friend is 9 years younger than her husband, but I guess I see those as being acceptable because I know these men...they're good people. As for some other guys that I know...I know exactly why they're going for these younger girls and it just makes me want to scream. If I didn't know these boys intentions, I don't think it would bother me as much. But they've come right out and told me and it just gets me all riled up.
Apparently girls that are closer to their age are more mature and know what they want out of life and these girls that are under the age of 20 are all...lets drink and be stupid. No, I'm not being stereotypical...I've hung out with them and know them. I'm not saying don't have fun...just don't be "silly" about it.
I use the word "silly" in place of another word because I don't want to be vulgar for my readers. Now I like these guys....let me rephrase that...I LIKED (past tense) these guys, they're great people on the outside and to everyone else they're responsible, mature and all around good boys, but I've talked with them. Even had them on pedastools because of what I thought they represented. Had their hearts poured out to me, only to find out something younger and dumber would be easier to handle. Now I could just be bitter...but I've seen them together and it's makes me want to scrub every part of my body....
It also drives me crazy when family does that. I love everyone in my family so much. And to hear that someone younger is who they're looking for really makes me skin crawl. Why is that? Why do guys always look for someone that is 5-10 years younger than them? I don't get it. What can you possible have in common? Especially when the girls is barely in college and the guy has been out of college for years...I can understand later on in life when they're both on the same track of being out of college and living on their own. Whatever. I just hate to see these young girls get hurt...it makes me hurt for them.
So to all you boys out there...just be careful of what you're doing. Know that girls always fall harder than you do could possibly be reading into a situation more than you are. Just be cautious of what you're doing.
Also on another note, I know I'm 4 weeks early, but I am getting so excited about Thanksgiving. This is my all time favorite holiday!! Why you ask...mostly because there's a couple different types of mashed potatoes that are served that day, but because it's just a great holiday. The whole family gets together and all you have to worry about is food. You don't have to buy gifts for 30 people, you don't have to wrap the 30 gifts, all you do is sit around and eat all day. Maybe watch a little football and take naps, but it's a day dedicated to eating. Now I may not look like someone that eats a lot...but believe me, I can put it away. That is one holiday when I hate that I'm a picky eater. I mostly just eat the turkey, mashed potatoes and a roll....but I always get seconds. There's usually not a vegetable that I like served on that day and I don't know why that is. Then a couple hours after eating...it's time to hit the desert table. Deliciousness all around!!
29 more days!!!
I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same
In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same
Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
-Sick Puppies
One thing that has really been bothering me, and I know it shouldn't but I can't help it...is the age difference between people in relationships. I know eventually it doesn't matter, my parents are 5 years apart, my best friend is 9 years younger than her husband, but I guess I see those as being acceptable because I know these men...they're good people. As for some other guys that I know...I know exactly why they're going for these younger girls and it just makes me want to scream. If I didn't know these boys intentions, I don't think it would bother me as much. But they've come right out and told me and it just gets me all riled up.
Apparently girls that are closer to their age are more mature and know what they want out of life and these girls that are under the age of 20 are all...lets drink and be stupid. No, I'm not being stereotypical...I've hung out with them and know them. I'm not saying don't have fun...just don't be "silly" about it.
I use the word "silly" in place of another word because I don't want to be vulgar for my readers. Now I like these guys....let me rephrase that...I LIKED (past tense) these guys, they're great people on the outside and to everyone else they're responsible, mature and all around good boys, but I've talked with them. Even had them on pedastools because of what I thought they represented. Had their hearts poured out to me, only to find out something younger and dumber would be easier to handle. Now I could just be bitter...but I've seen them together and it's makes me want to scrub every part of my body....
It also drives me crazy when family does that. I love everyone in my family so much. And to hear that someone younger is who they're looking for really makes me skin crawl. Why is that? Why do guys always look for someone that is 5-10 years younger than them? I don't get it. What can you possible have in common? Especially when the girls is barely in college and the guy has been out of college for years...I can understand later on in life when they're both on the same track of being out of college and living on their own. Whatever. I just hate to see these young girls get hurt...it makes me hurt for them.
So to all you boys out there...just be careful of what you're doing. Know that girls always fall harder than you do could possibly be reading into a situation more than you are. Just be cautious of what you're doing.
Also on another note, I know I'm 4 weeks early, but I am getting so excited about Thanksgiving. This is my all time favorite holiday!! Why you ask...mostly because there's a couple different types of mashed potatoes that are served that day, but because it's just a great holiday. The whole family gets together and all you have to worry about is food. You don't have to buy gifts for 30 people, you don't have to wrap the 30 gifts, all you do is sit around and eat all day. Maybe watch a little football and take naps, but it's a day dedicated to eating. Now I may not look like someone that eats a lot...but believe me, I can put it away. That is one holiday when I hate that I'm a picky eater. I mostly just eat the turkey, mashed potatoes and a roll....but I always get seconds. There's usually not a vegetable that I like served on that day and I don't know why that is. Then a couple hours after eating...it's time to hit the desert table. Deliciousness all around!!
29 more days!!!
I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same
In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same
Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
-Sick Puppies
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I'm Broken
Well it's been a while since I've reached out to you all in the land of the internet. It's been a busy week and half. I had almost gone insane...but then I came back.
I was very excited to go to Kerrville last week. We were going to have a mini-retreat for the San Antonio and Austin Conference Youth Directors. Something that I really needed. First I had to get up before 7:00 AM, so that was rough, and when I get up early I usually get that nauseous feeling in my stomach. Well that feeling wasn't going away even after getting out of bed and getting dressed and ready to go. My ride got to my apartment at about 7:15 and came up to my place. I told her I wasn't feeling well...long story summurized: I lost 5 pounds on Thursday because I was so sick. That's right...throwing up from 7:30 a.m. to 10:30...that makes for a long horrible day. It was awful. But I got to take lots of little naps and watch loads of TV. I like TV!!
Props to Kyle for bringing me some Delicous Gatorade (which I later threw up) and Over the Hedge. I haven't been sick like that in so long that I forgot how horrible feels.
So I spent the rest of the weekend laying on my couch and watching TV and sleeping. It was semi-relaxing, semi-recovery. Didn't eat much, so I didn't have much strength. But I got enough of it to go to Trunk-Or-Treat. That's just a little event that the church puts on for a Halloween Celebration. We line up our cars, decorate our trunks and the kids get dressed up and trick-or-treat from trunk to trunk!! It's fun.
Now I guess I'm still in some sort of recovery process. I still just feel so tired all day and my appetite is just shot. Nothing sounds good, and nothing tastes good.
"If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall...
...I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to you"
-Sanctus Real
I was very excited to go to Kerrville last week. We were going to have a mini-retreat for the San Antonio and Austin Conference Youth Directors. Something that I really needed. First I had to get up before 7:00 AM, so that was rough, and when I get up early I usually get that nauseous feeling in my stomach. Well that feeling wasn't going away even after getting out of bed and getting dressed and ready to go. My ride got to my apartment at about 7:15 and came up to my place. I told her I wasn't feeling well...long story summurized: I lost 5 pounds on Thursday because I was so sick. That's right...throwing up from 7:30 a.m. to 10:30...that makes for a long horrible day. It was awful. But I got to take lots of little naps and watch loads of TV. I like TV!!
Props to Kyle for bringing me some Delicous Gatorade (which I later threw up) and Over the Hedge. I haven't been sick like that in so long that I forgot how horrible feels.
So I spent the rest of the weekend laying on my couch and watching TV and sleeping. It was semi-relaxing, semi-recovery. Didn't eat much, so I didn't have much strength. But I got enough of it to go to Trunk-Or-Treat. That's just a little event that the church puts on for a Halloween Celebration. We line up our cars, decorate our trunks and the kids get dressed up and trick-or-treat from trunk to trunk!! It's fun.
Now I guess I'm still in some sort of recovery process. I still just feel so tired all day and my appetite is just shot. Nothing sounds good, and nothing tastes good.
"If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall...
...I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to you"
-Sanctus Real
Monday, October 16, 2006
Cacahuete Festival
The 2nd weekend in October is dedicated to the Peanut Festival in Floresville Texas. Why a "Peanut" festival you ask...well, Floresville just so happens to be the Peanut Capitol of Texas. I know, that's a big deal. Of course, this is the weekend when college students come home, or people that moved away come back for a visit because they know everyone will be in town. Small town fun! It runs from Friday afternoon until late Saturday night.
I went out with my brother for a little while on Friday evening and ran into some old friends and family. You'll always run into someone you know. It really isn't that exciting, so Daniel and I went to Roper's. The only decent bar in town. We ran into our next door neighbor there. Our families have lived next door to each other for, I would say, about 27 years. They just so happen to be my God-Parents. My God Mother was killed by a drunk driver last November and it was a pretty rough ordeal. They had lost their 21 year old son to Asthma when I was really young and now this. The poor family has been through more, but that's none of your business. It just a different situation. Guy, my God Father, must have been there by himself, but knew the men around him. We got to chit-chatting for a little bit and he bought my brother and I a drink. Then we sort of went our seperate ways. I went back to talk a little more, but he kept saying how much he missed his wife and how he thinks about her every day and how he wished she was here to see me (it had been a while since I had seen the both of them). It was just a really emotional encounter. I never have the right words to comfort someone like that. I mean, they had been married for over 30 years and now she's gone. What do I know about any of that? I just hugged him and told him how good it was to see him out and about. Although a bar really isn't the place he should be out at, but still. I guess it's better to be out socially than stuck in a big house by yourself. All in all, I'm really glad that I ran into him.
Even after a late night, I got up to go to the parade the next morning. That was a little tougher than I expected. We always meet up with my uncle in the usual spot in front of the electric company. I got to see my cousin Sarah, that I dont' get to see that much. Plus some more of my Dad's side of the family. What a great weekend.
Narrowing down what I want to do with my future, which I'm a little excited about. Hopefully everything will work out the way I want it to.
I went out with my brother for a little while on Friday evening and ran into some old friends and family. You'll always run into someone you know. It really isn't that exciting, so Daniel and I went to Roper's. The only decent bar in town. We ran into our next door neighbor there. Our families have lived next door to each other for, I would say, about 27 years. They just so happen to be my God-Parents. My God Mother was killed by a drunk driver last November and it was a pretty rough ordeal. They had lost their 21 year old son to Asthma when I was really young and now this. The poor family has been through more, but that's none of your business. It just a different situation. Guy, my God Father, must have been there by himself, but knew the men around him. We got to chit-chatting for a little bit and he bought my brother and I a drink. Then we sort of went our seperate ways. I went back to talk a little more, but he kept saying how much he missed his wife and how he thinks about her every day and how he wished she was here to see me (it had been a while since I had seen the both of them). It was just a really emotional encounter. I never have the right words to comfort someone like that. I mean, they had been married for over 30 years and now she's gone. What do I know about any of that? I just hugged him and told him how good it was to see him out and about. Although a bar really isn't the place he should be out at, but still. I guess it's better to be out socially than stuck in a big house by yourself. All in all, I'm really glad that I ran into him.
Even after a late night, I got up to go to the parade the next morning. That was a little tougher than I expected. We always meet up with my uncle in the usual spot in front of the electric company. I got to see my cousin Sarah, that I dont' get to see that much. Plus some more of my Dad's side of the family. What a great weekend.
Narrowing down what I want to do with my future, which I'm a little excited about. Hopefully everything will work out the way I want it to.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
You are my Joy
There's always that one song that can kind of just GET YOU GOING...you get pumped up and ready to go face the world. Maybe a theme song for you. I am one of those people that always seem to think of a song during conversation. In college when I would be walking around and this certain baseball player would walk by the only thing I would think of was the song "I want you to want me"...That song now comes up for other people as well...that song or the Mr. Big song "I'm the one that wants to be with you"...
When I see my friend Lauren I think of the lyrics "You are more Beautiful, than anyone EVER..." I just can't help myself. There's just music constantly playing in my head.
With that said...this is my new PUMP me up and get excited about life song:
And He set me on fire
And I am burning alive
With His breath in my lungs
I am coming undone
And I cannot hold it in and remain composed
Love’s taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go
I am letting myself go
You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my joy
I need to catch my breath,
I need to I need to catch my breath,
give me a moment now
by The David Crowder Band...
My Original pump me up song is "Ice Ice Baby"...that one will always get me excited. But for now, this is my back up!
When I see my friend Lauren I think of the lyrics "You are more Beautiful, than anyone EVER..." I just can't help myself. There's just music constantly playing in my head.
With that said...this is my new PUMP me up and get excited about life song:
And He set me on fire
And I am burning alive
With His breath in my lungs
I am coming undone
And I cannot hold it in and remain composed
Love’s taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go
I am letting myself go
You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my joy
You are my joy
I need to catch my breath,
I need to I need to catch my breath,
give me a moment now
by The David Crowder Band...
My Original pump me up song is "Ice Ice Baby"...that one will always get me excited. But for now, this is my back up!
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Where to Even Begin
What an amazing weekend. I couldn't have asked for a better one...it was much needed.
I attended the National Youth Worker's Convention from Youth Specialties. It was in Austin, but a friend and I got a hotel room for the weekend so it was like a mini-vacation. The speakers were great, the worship leaders were awesome, and fellowship is just always a good time. There was laughing, crying, praying, revealing, contemplating and so much more. I am worn out from all the walking and listening but I am so glad that I got to participate in it.
It's that little extra push of excitement about what I do that was a little overwhelming. I can't explain it, but right now, I'm so excited about what I do. I wish I didn't just get that once a year. But even so, I'm glad I got it. I could right an essay about everything that went on, but instead, I'm not. If you really want to know what happened, you can ask and I'll tell you!
I attended the National Youth Worker's Convention from Youth Specialties. It was in Austin, but a friend and I got a hotel room for the weekend so it was like a mini-vacation. The speakers were great, the worship leaders were awesome, and fellowship is just always a good time. There was laughing, crying, praying, revealing, contemplating and so much more. I am worn out from all the walking and listening but I am so glad that I got to participate in it.
It's that little extra push of excitement about what I do that was a little overwhelming. I can't explain it, but right now, I'm so excited about what I do. I wish I didn't just get that once a year. But even so, I'm glad I got it. I could right an essay about everything that went on, but instead, I'm not. If you really want to know what happened, you can ask and I'll tell you!
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
They're Big, I'm Little.
Well the doctor visit went well. Although I had to sit in a freezing cold room all by myself without my shirt on. Which was weird. I don't usually take my shirt off for many people...
Good thing the doctor was pretty cute...married...but still good looking. He poked around on my back and made my bend over and stretch and all that good stuff. I told him the 3 different muscle relaxers that I've been on for my back...and he prescribed one of the same ones to me. Yay...more drugs.
Anyways...for now, his diagnosis is a herniated disc. There are many different terms to describe a herniated disc, such as a pinched nerve, bulging disc, ruptured disc or slipped disc. So for now I have to take a barrel full of ibuprofen a day and go to physical therapy a couple times a week until I get the hang of the exercises for me to do them on my own at home. So I'll go there this afternoon and see what's going on.
I guess this is just the first step in a process of relieving back pain, but I figure I've been dealing with this since my Junior Year of High School, it's about time. So that's that...hopefully my hour of exercise today will do some good.
On another note...I missed some voicemails on Monday, and I'm assuming it's because I turned my phone off while I was in the doctors office. Well, last night at 2:54 A.M. my voicemail on my phone sounded...so I decided to check it, since it scared me awake. No new messages. My phone just decided to pull a prank on my. NOT FUNNY. There were no missed calls, but it still went of. It was a little freaky...but oh well.
Good thing the doctor was pretty cute...married...but still good looking. He poked around on my back and made my bend over and stretch and all that good stuff. I told him the 3 different muscle relaxers that I've been on for my back...and he prescribed one of the same ones to me. Yay...more drugs.
Anyways...for now, his diagnosis is a herniated disc. There are many different terms to describe a herniated disc, such as a pinched nerve, bulging disc, ruptured disc or slipped disc. So for now I have to take a barrel full of ibuprofen a day and go to physical therapy a couple times a week until I get the hang of the exercises for me to do them on my own at home. So I'll go there this afternoon and see what's going on.
I guess this is just the first step in a process of relieving back pain, but I figure I've been dealing with this since my Junior Year of High School, it's about time. So that's that...hopefully my hour of exercise today will do some good.
On another note...I missed some voicemails on Monday, and I'm assuming it's because I turned my phone off while I was in the doctors office. Well, last night at 2:54 A.M. my voicemail on my phone sounded...so I decided to check it, since it scared me awake. No new messages. My phone just decided to pull a prank on my. NOT FUNNY. There were no missed calls, but it still went of. It was a little freaky...but oh well.
Monday, October 02, 2006
Finally
Well I finally did it...I'm going to go see a doctor this afternoon about my back.
After years of being uncomfortable, I'm going to get it checked out. I left work early on Thursday because I was in so much I couldn't concentrate on anything. So it was a rough day and Friday wasn't any better...then I had to go camping on Saturday.
Anyways....Thursday when I left work, I went and bought Back Pain Pills, some Emu lotion (I had gotten some in college it's supposed to be good for sore muscles) and a Lumbar pillow. And I still laid on the couch crying because everything hurt.
So Friday I spent most of the day on the phone with insurance figuring out all my deductables and what not. I found an Orthopedist on Georgetown that takes my insurance and had an opening today. So I took it.
I'm not expecting much because I've been to doctors for my back before...but I'm hoping it's a start and he can tell me what the next step is in getting this taken care of.
I'll let you know.
After years of being uncomfortable, I'm going to get it checked out. I left work early on Thursday because I was in so much I couldn't concentrate on anything. So it was a rough day and Friday wasn't any better...then I had to go camping on Saturday.
Anyways....Thursday when I left work, I went and bought Back Pain Pills, some Emu lotion (I had gotten some in college it's supposed to be good for sore muscles) and a Lumbar pillow. And I still laid on the couch crying because everything hurt.
So Friday I spent most of the day on the phone with insurance figuring out all my deductables and what not. I found an Orthopedist on Georgetown that takes my insurance and had an opening today. So I took it.
I'm not expecting much because I've been to doctors for my back before...but I'm hoping it's a start and he can tell me what the next step is in getting this taken care of.
I'll let you know.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
One of my Favorite People!!
Yes...I have favorite people, and they are all very special. They're not necessarily best friends of mine...they're just wonderful people.
Today I'll tell you about Brad H...he's definitely one of my favorites. He just always puts a smile on my face with his personality. I met Brad in the summer of 2002 at Camp Chrysalis where we were on staff together. So, even though I've only known him a few years...he's one of the top people on my list.
Brad has been living in the Domincal Republic with the Peace Corps for a little over a year know and he sends updates every now and then through another type of blog. He is a Youth Specialist which means he is in charge of forming youth sports leagues, teaching sexual health, teaching a little English, organizing literacy campagins etc... for the youth in a rural community in the Dominican Republic. But this time, I got a personal email from him. Mostly, he was just asking for money to help sponsor some kids to get some retreats set up for them. He write:
"I was writing to see if you and the youth at your church would be interested in helping out my community. Thanks to a generous donation from the NFL (specifically the Chicago Bears) we have formed a flag football team for kids ages 10-16. They have already participated in one tournament and the team is really starting to become cohesive. However, I would like to expand to focus of the group and not just concentrate on flag football but also work on leadership and character building. To do this I am organizing a series of workshops that will, hopefully, culminate with a weekend retreat to a high ropes course here in the Dominican Republic. The only problem in funding."
So if anyone would like to help out...I'm gonna help him out.
But back to why he is one of my favorite people...the way he writes just puts a smile on my face everytime.
I would like to take some snippets from his recent emails to me:
"My everything,
Hello friend! I know it has been a while since we last saw each other tromping around the fields of Camp Chrysalis, but I hope all is well for you in the bustling metropolis of Georgetown...even though I HATE YOU!"
"To my most HATED friend in the world-
I HATE you!! I hate you more than my no-milk-producing goat!! And I HATE that goat! Becky, my dear, how are you? I miss you...."
"I love you. Wait! What? No I dont! I HATE YOU!!"
" Smooch, thanks so much! You're the best. Hope everything is going well and fill me in on your life.
I hate you more than toe-socks (those things are creepy. they make your feet look like hands. Awkward!)
Brad"
Anyways...those were just from the two recent emails and I thought they were funny!
Today I'll tell you about Brad H...he's definitely one of my favorites. He just always puts a smile on my face with his personality. I met Brad in the summer of 2002 at Camp Chrysalis where we were on staff together. So, even though I've only known him a few years...he's one of the top people on my list.
Brad has been living in the Domincal Republic with the Peace Corps for a little over a year know and he sends updates every now and then through another type of blog. He is a Youth Specialist which means he is in charge of forming youth sports leagues, teaching sexual health, teaching a little English, organizing literacy campagins etc... for the youth in a rural community in the Dominican Republic. But this time, I got a personal email from him. Mostly, he was just asking for money to help sponsor some kids to get some retreats set up for them. He write:
"I was writing to see if you and the youth at your church would be interested in helping out my community. Thanks to a generous donation from the NFL (specifically the Chicago Bears) we have formed a flag football team for kids ages 10-16. They have already participated in one tournament and the team is really starting to become cohesive. However, I would like to expand to focus of the group and not just concentrate on flag football but also work on leadership and character building. To do this I am organizing a series of workshops that will, hopefully, culminate with a weekend retreat to a high ropes course here in the Dominican Republic. The only problem in funding."
So if anyone would like to help out...I'm gonna help him out.
But back to why he is one of my favorite people...the way he writes just puts a smile on my face everytime.
I would like to take some snippets from his recent emails to me:
"My everything,
Hello friend! I know it has been a while since we last saw each other tromping around the fields of Camp Chrysalis, but I hope all is well for you in the bustling metropolis of Georgetown...even though I HATE YOU!"
"To my most HATED friend in the world-
I HATE you!! I hate you more than my no-milk-producing goat!! And I HATE that goat! Becky, my dear, how are you? I miss you...."
"I love you. Wait! What? No I dont! I HATE YOU!!"
" Smooch, thanks so much! You're the best. Hope everything is going well and fill me in on your life.
I hate you more than toe-socks (those things are creepy. they make your feet look like hands. Awkward!)
Brad"
Anyways...those were just from the two recent emails and I thought they were funny!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
His Plan for Your Mate
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone- to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God, to a Christian, says "No, not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone. I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me- exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing and allow Me, to give you the most thrilling plan excisting- one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the BEST. Please allow me to bring it to you. Just keep watching Me-expecting the greatest thing- keep experiencing the satisfaction knowing that I AM. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait.
Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things other have gotten or that I've given them. Don't look at the things you want. You just keep looking off and away up to me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love more wonderful than anyone would ever dream. You see, until you are ready, and the one I have for you is read. I am working even this very minute to have you both ready at the same time. Until you both are satisfied exclusively with me, and life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience that love that exemplifies your love with Me...and this is perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the existing unions of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am God Almighty. Believe and abe satisfied.
Q's:
1. What does this letter from God to you say about His role, plan, and purpose for you life?
2. What would it look like, in your life, to be 100% completely satisfied with God?
3. How do you feel knowing that God is preparing your future husband or wife at this very moment?
*I was looking for a devotional to do with my high school group this Sunday while we go camping and I found this in a binder that I had from when I worked at camp and I wanted to share it with you all.
Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things other have gotten or that I've given them. Don't look at the things you want. You just keep looking off and away up to me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love more wonderful than anyone would ever dream. You see, until you are ready, and the one I have for you is read. I am working even this very minute to have you both ready at the same time. Until you both are satisfied exclusively with me, and life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience that love that exemplifies your love with Me...and this is perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the existing unions of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am God Almighty. Believe and abe satisfied.
Q's:
1. What does this letter from God to you say about His role, plan, and purpose for you life?
2. What would it look like, in your life, to be 100% completely satisfied with God?
3. How do you feel knowing that God is preparing your future husband or wife at this very moment?
*I was looking for a devotional to do with my high school group this Sunday while we go camping and I found this in a binder that I had from when I worked at camp and I wanted to share it with you all.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Thoroughly Predictable
Here's a secret...I love the movie "A Walk To Remember". I just think it's a great movie. Probably not likely...but still, a great movie.
I watched it on Sunday over the couple hours I wasn't at church. There's a scene in the movie where Mandy Moore and Shane West are riding the school bus back to their school after Saturday tutoring and this is one of the conversations they had:
Jamie: Please don't pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We've had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you're Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn't exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from "Stars and Planets." Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven't heard before.
Landon: You don't care what people think about you?
Jamie: No.
So now I'm just going back to my last post...it may seem that you know who I am or what I'm about...but like she says, it's just thoroughly predictable. Hah...I love it.
Also, let me give you the definition of a deadline: a date or time before which something must be done. a date or time BEFORE which something MUST be done. Now, when I see that there is a deadline I'm usually turning it in before it's actually due.
Now to me, this is a simple task. You get an assignment you get the date in which you need to give it back. Simple.
I didn't know that this doesn't apply to everyone. Silly me just thought that we all had to go by certain deadlines. But apparently this isn't true. Some people are just so powerful that deadlines don't apply to them. They can turn in anything past deadline and it's fine. How do you get this power you ask? But there are people that go to my church that just seem to think that deadlines mean: turn it in whenever it's convenient to you, so that you are not going out of your way make someone else's life easier. Maybe I just have the wrong dictionary.
So please for the sake of other people's job's and sanity, if you see that something has a deadline, try and get it turned in one time!! Please!
I watched it on Sunday over the couple hours I wasn't at church. There's a scene in the movie where Mandy Moore and Shane West are riding the school bus back to their school after Saturday tutoring and this is one of the conversations they had:
Jamie: Please don't pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We've had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you're Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn't exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from "Stars and Planets." Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven't heard before.
Landon: You don't care what people think about you?
Jamie: No.
So now I'm just going back to my last post...it may seem that you know who I am or what I'm about...but like she says, it's just thoroughly predictable. Hah...I love it.
Also, let me give you the definition of a deadline: a date or time before which something must be done. a date or time BEFORE which something MUST be done. Now, when I see that there is a deadline I'm usually turning it in before it's actually due.
Now to me, this is a simple task. You get an assignment you get the date in which you need to give it back. Simple.
I didn't know that this doesn't apply to everyone. Silly me just thought that we all had to go by certain deadlines. But apparently this isn't true. Some people are just so powerful that deadlines don't apply to them. They can turn in anything past deadline and it's fine. How do you get this power you ask? But there are people that go to my church that just seem to think that deadlines mean: turn it in whenever it's convenient to you, so that you are not going out of your way make someone else's life easier. Maybe I just have the wrong dictionary.
So please for the sake of other people's job's and sanity, if you see that something has a deadline, try and get it turned in one time!! Please!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
So Much!!
I have so much to talk about today!! Awesome I know. I'm sure you all have just been waiting to hear me say that! There's a lot to say because lots has happened since 4:00 yesterday.
First, the secretary and I just have Hours upon hours of "comp" time building up, so we decided to leave work at about 4:45. Which at first I saw as a good thing because I needed to make a stop at Pet Smart because Peanut needed some food. I ended up buying her a new house too because her little wooded one that she has now is a couple years old and just a little gross and chewed up. Fine, I don't mind buying stuff that I need.
As I was leaving I noticed that Best Buy was just across the parking lot and I was thinking to myself..."you know, I haven't bought a CD in a while and I KNOW for a fact that New Found Glory's new CD, "Coming Home" just came out today." CD's are always cheaper if you buy them on the day they come out, so it was just logical to buy it that day! I also remembered that The Early November also had a newer CD out that I hadn't purchased yet. So of course, I might as well buy it while I'm there, right? Right. Plus when I got there, I saw that the Early November CD was a 3 disk pack + a DVD...That's awesome. Three CD's + DVD for like $13.99...it doesn't get any better than that. So basically I bought like 4 CD's for under $25. That's good spending. AWESOME!! I know.
As I was checking out the high school boy ringing me up asks how I'm doing. I say: "I'm doing well, thanks. How are you doing?" "I've never heard anybody answer like that, using the word 'well'"...I told him that he's not the first person to tell me that. I got called out on saying "well" the other day also. Isn't that the correct way to use that word? I'm not an English major, but I thought I wasn't doing anything wrong. Then he says, "It's just funny to see someone your age say it that way"....my age? What the heck does that mean? I kind of laughed a little laugh and then walked out of the store. And what did I see when I walked out...more stores. I can't control myself. I proceeded to buy three shirts at another store. Then I made myself leave, because apparently I have a problem and I needed to get out of the shopping area!
So I got home and sat on my kitchen counter and put my new CD's in the CD player one at a time, and yes, I listed to every song. How many songs you ask...59. Yes, 59 songs I listened to. That's a lot of songs. But one of the disks from The Early November has 24 songs on it and none of them are over a minute and a half. So that helped.
I think I made some excellent purchases at Best Buy. I definitely recommend both of those CD's to anyone looking for new CD's to buy.
After listening to all my new songs I watched the movie "Hustle and Flow". I also recommend that movie to you all, especially if you like rap music. It was just good entertainment and an eye opener. I was interupted half way through by my cousin. But I didn't mind because I really like talking to him. He'll be 30 in December (don't tell him I told you that), so he's my "advice" guy. He tells me what guys are really thinking when they say certain things, and I tell him what girls really think when they say certain things. He really makes me feel good about decisions I make when it comes to guys and lets me know that I shouldn't feel bad about anything I decide. Kind of makes me feel alright that I'm shallow at times. He's definitely shallow at times...but come on, who's not Shallow??? You're lying if you say you're not. So we had a nice hour long talk...Good times.
So then I go to sleep. I'm such a bad sleeper. I haven't gotten a decent nights sleep for years now. It's like my back just know's when I'm going to bed. As soon as I lay down I can just start feeling it begin to throb and then I can't get comfortable and everything from my shoulders to my neck to my spine to my ribs to all over my back is just hurting. It really stinks. Yes, I've been to doctors and gotten medication and done the "excercises" prescribed to me and even got an MRI on it, but nothing seems to work. It sucks. And I complain about it...but I don't know what to do about it, so any suggestions on this subject will be appreciated!!
Of course I wake up unrested and in pain, but I have to face the day anyways...and yes it still hurts, but I guess it's just something I have to live with.
While I'm getting ready this morning, the Bobby Bones show is talking about the farthest you've ever been for a first date. Some people were calling in that they flew to Missouri and it didn't work out right away and a girl was just stranded there for a couple days by herself because the guy just wasn't that interested. That's rude of the guy. At least hang out with her while she's there! So here's my story.
First story comes all the way from Detroit, Michigan. That is 1352.65 miles away...pretty far I know. But at least it was him that flew down and not me. It was a nice 5 days together of hanging out. Of course it didn't work out, but it was a fun weekend of something different.
Second story takes me 1388.76 miles...just a little farther. Yes I flew all the way to Sturgeon Bay, Wisconsin. By myself. My parents were a little freaked out, but it was a family member of a lady at church. So I wasn't too worried. I knew right away that it wasn't really something that was going to "work out" and we talked about that right away, and so the trip was great. We still had lots of fun hanging out. Plus I got to travel and I love traveling and I don't think I would have ever gone to Wisconsin for anything. So it was a good excuse to go there!
Both boys were pretty far, make that Very Far, away from home, but they were both something new and exciting. Long distance relationships are hard and you have to work at them. But I think they can be something great as long as you both put something into. I don't necessarily recommend that everyone make these long trips, but for some, it could be a great experience for you!
Then I met a boy from Florence, South Carlonina this past fall while I was in Nashville and he was pretty fun. We hung out for a night and then I flew back to Texas and he drove back home. We talked on the phone for a few months after that, but again, it wasn't a big deal. Just another state to mark off of guys...just kidding. I don't have boys in every state...or do I? Kidding again. But I do have friends from far away.
When I worked in Pennsylvania at Camp Tioga, I met a bunch of fun people. I didn't actually "date" anyone while I was there. But I did go on a date the last day before I left for Maryland. This guy was from New York, but I think he's in Massechusetts now. We still email back and forth every now and then...which is nice. Just a little catch up time.
I guess I do have friends all over the place!!! I even have friends out in California, Arizona, Kansas, Oregan...goodness, I need to start traveling more to make some visits!
The morning radio show just got my juices flowing about all the people from out of state that I don't get to see anymore...
So those are all my stories for the day...
First, the secretary and I just have Hours upon hours of "comp" time building up, so we decided to leave work at about 4:45. Which at first I saw as a good thing because I needed to make a stop at Pet Smart because Peanut needed some food. I ended up buying her a new house too because her little wooded one that she has now is a couple years old and just a little gross and chewed up. Fine, I don't mind buying stuff that I need.
As I was leaving I noticed that Best Buy was just across the parking lot and I was thinking to myself..."you know, I haven't bought a CD in a while and I KNOW for a fact that New Found Glory's new CD, "Coming Home" just came out today." CD's are always cheaper if you buy them on the day they come out, so it was just logical to buy it that day! I also remembered that The Early November also had a newer CD out that I hadn't purchased yet. So of course, I might as well buy it while I'm there, right? Right. Plus when I got there, I saw that the Early November CD was a 3 disk pack + a DVD...That's awesome. Three CD's + DVD for like $13.99...it doesn't get any better than that. So basically I bought like 4 CD's for under $25. That's good spending. AWESOME!! I know.
As I was checking out the high school boy ringing me up asks how I'm doing. I say: "I'm doing well, thanks. How are you doing?" "I've never heard anybody answer like that, using the word 'well'"...I told him that he's not the first person to tell me that. I got called out on saying "well" the other day also. Isn't that the correct way to use that word? I'm not an English major, but I thought I wasn't doing anything wrong. Then he says, "It's just funny to see someone your age say it that way"....my age? What the heck does that mean? I kind of laughed a little laugh and then walked out of the store. And what did I see when I walked out...more stores. I can't control myself. I proceeded to buy three shirts at another store. Then I made myself leave, because apparently I have a problem and I needed to get out of the shopping area!
So I got home and sat on my kitchen counter and put my new CD's in the CD player one at a time, and yes, I listed to every song. How many songs you ask...59. Yes, 59 songs I listened to. That's a lot of songs. But one of the disks from The Early November has 24 songs on it and none of them are over a minute and a half. So that helped.
I think I made some excellent purchases at Best Buy. I definitely recommend both of those CD's to anyone looking for new CD's to buy.
After listening to all my new songs I watched the movie "Hustle and Flow". I also recommend that movie to you all, especially if you like rap music. It was just good entertainment and an eye opener. I was interupted half way through by my cousin. But I didn't mind because I really like talking to him. He'll be 30 in December (don't tell him I told you that), so he's my "advice" guy. He tells me what guys are really thinking when they say certain things, and I tell him what girls really think when they say certain things. He really makes me feel good about decisions I make when it comes to guys and lets me know that I shouldn't feel bad about anything I decide. Kind of makes me feel alright that I'm shallow at times. He's definitely shallow at times...but come on, who's not Shallow??? You're lying if you say you're not. So we had a nice hour long talk...Good times.
So then I go to sleep. I'm such a bad sleeper. I haven't gotten a decent nights sleep for years now. It's like my back just know's when I'm going to bed. As soon as I lay down I can just start feeling it begin to throb and then I can't get comfortable and everything from my shoulders to my neck to my spine to my ribs to all over my back is just hurting. It really stinks. Yes, I've been to doctors and gotten medication and done the "excercises" prescribed to me and even got an MRI on it, but nothing seems to work. It sucks. And I complain about it...but I don't know what to do about it, so any suggestions on this subject will be appreciated!!
Of course I wake up unrested and in pain, but I have to face the day anyways...and yes it still hurts, but I guess it's just something I have to live with.
While I'm getting ready this morning, the Bobby Bones show is talking about the farthest you've ever been for a first date. Some people were calling in that they flew to Missouri and it didn't work out right away and a girl was just stranded there for a couple days by herself because the guy just wasn't that interested. That's rude of the guy. At least hang out with her while she's there! So here's my story.
First story comes all the way from Detroit, Michigan. That is 1352.65 miles away...pretty far I know. But at least it was him that flew down and not me. It was a nice 5 days together of hanging out. Of course it didn't work out, but it was a fun weekend of something different.
Second story takes me 1388.76 miles...just a little farther. Yes I flew all the way to Sturgeon Bay, Wisconsin. By myself. My parents were a little freaked out, but it was a family member of a lady at church. So I wasn't too worried. I knew right away that it wasn't really something that was going to "work out" and we talked about that right away, and so the trip was great. We still had lots of fun hanging out. Plus I got to travel and I love traveling and I don't think I would have ever gone to Wisconsin for anything. So it was a good excuse to go there!
Both boys were pretty far, make that Very Far, away from home, but they were both something new and exciting. Long distance relationships are hard and you have to work at them. But I think they can be something great as long as you both put something into. I don't necessarily recommend that everyone make these long trips, but for some, it could be a great experience for you!
Then I met a boy from Florence, South Carlonina this past fall while I was in Nashville and he was pretty fun. We hung out for a night and then I flew back to Texas and he drove back home. We talked on the phone for a few months after that, but again, it wasn't a big deal. Just another state to mark off of guys...just kidding. I don't have boys in every state...or do I? Kidding again. But I do have friends from far away.
When I worked in Pennsylvania at Camp Tioga, I met a bunch of fun people. I didn't actually "date" anyone while I was there. But I did go on a date the last day before I left for Maryland. This guy was from New York, but I think he's in Massechusetts now. We still email back and forth every now and then...which is nice. Just a little catch up time.
I guess I do have friends all over the place!!! I even have friends out in California, Arizona, Kansas, Oregan...goodness, I need to start traveling more to make some visits!
The morning radio show just got my juices flowing about all the people from out of state that I don't get to see anymore...
So those are all my stories for the day...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Like and Dislike
I was inspired by another blog to think of things that I hate. So I got on the topic if words that I dislike. I really don't like the word Hate, so we're going to use "dislike".
So here it is. Words I dislike:
1. Hate
2. Panties or Panty
3. Pure
4. Discharge
5. Denied
6. Cancer
7. Douche
Words I Like:
1. Amazing
2. Delerious
3. Pumpkin
4. Skittle
Now this is a work in progress so I'm sure I will think of more words, but this is just what popped into my head at this moment.
So here it is. Words I dislike:
1. Hate
2. Panties or Panty
3. Pure
4. Discharge
5. Denied
6. Cancer
7. Douche
Words I Like:
1. Amazing
2. Delerious
3. Pumpkin
4. Skittle
Now this is a work in progress so I'm sure I will think of more words, but this is just what popped into my head at this moment.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Sometimes I Wish
Sometims I wish I could trade places with someone else. Just to be somewhere different, do something different, and be someone different. I HATE when people stereotype me and just assume they know who I am. I guess I'm just as guilty, but I feel I at least give people a chance. It really gets to me sometimes...like I have this huge label across my forehead and when people read it, they stear clear of me. It hurts, and it sucks and most of the time I can't do anything about it. I'm terrified that no one will ever see me for who I really am. The feeling comes and goes but when it hits...it's gut wrenching.
I had dinner with an old friend the other day, someone that I don't really ever "hang out" with, but he was in town, so I did. He just got married this past May and I was asking how that was going. His response..."We don't really have anything in common, but she's real cool." Nothing in Common??!! Real Cool!!! Not a "man I really love her" or "it's just great"...it was a little depressing to hear.
Why would you even consider marrying someone you have nothing in common with? To me, he's just settling. I know he's in his 30's and was probably just thinking this was the next logical step to take...but that stinks. I don't want to have to "settle" for someone. That's just sad-but at the rate I'm going-there's a possibility that it could happen. But I'm going to do my best for that not to happen.
Where to go now? Life is just very distracting right now, I have a hard time concentrating and focusing on certain tasks. I can't figure out what's distracting me-but there's something there. I don't know how to put my finger on it, I just wish I could so that I can get in to a more of a routine where I can actually "live". Wouldn't that be Awesome? I guess if I had the will power I could just switch things on and off, but I just don't have the strength. I can see myself being ridiculous, but how do I fix things without help. If I just had the strength and will power to change my attitude things would be so different....better.
Had a good talk with Lauren last night. Goodness, I miss that girl. She's the only girl I know that I'm so comfortable to tell things to. There's no judgement in her tone...just friendliness. It sucks that she's so far away...but at least we're still as close as if she was still here!
I had dinner with an old friend the other day, someone that I don't really ever "hang out" with, but he was in town, so I did. He just got married this past May and I was asking how that was going. His response..."We don't really have anything in common, but she's real cool." Nothing in Common??!! Real Cool!!! Not a "man I really love her" or "it's just great"...it was a little depressing to hear.
Why would you even consider marrying someone you have nothing in common with? To me, he's just settling. I know he's in his 30's and was probably just thinking this was the next logical step to take...but that stinks. I don't want to have to "settle" for someone. That's just sad-but at the rate I'm going-there's a possibility that it could happen. But I'm going to do my best for that not to happen.
Where to go now? Life is just very distracting right now, I have a hard time concentrating and focusing on certain tasks. I can't figure out what's distracting me-but there's something there. I don't know how to put my finger on it, I just wish I could so that I can get in to a more of a routine where I can actually "live". Wouldn't that be Awesome? I guess if I had the will power I could just switch things on and off, but I just don't have the strength. I can see myself being ridiculous, but how do I fix things without help. If I just had the strength and will power to change my attitude things would be so different....better.
Had a good talk with Lauren last night. Goodness, I miss that girl. She's the only girl I know that I'm so comfortable to tell things to. There's no judgement in her tone...just friendliness. It sucks that she's so far away...but at least we're still as close as if she was still here!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
A Few More
Here's a few more songs that I thought of over the weekend that I think you all should listen to:
Mest - "Living Dead"
Sum 41 - "Motivation" and "In Too Deep"
New Found Glory - "Head on Collision" and "The Story So Far"
Blink 182 - "Please Take Me Home"
John Mayer - "Love Song for No One"
Something Corporate - "Fall"
Guster - "Rocketship"
Our Lady Peace - "Do You Like It"
Trik Turner - "Friends and Family"
Lil' Keke - "Platinum in the Ghetto" (that one's just fun!)
Sensefield - "Save Yourself"
David Gray - "Be Mine"
Aqualung - "Brighter Than Sunshine"
Better Than Ezra - "Lifetime"
Mest - "Rooftops"
Phantom Planet - "One Ray of Sunlight"
Sarah McLachlan - "Push"
I chose these songs because of the lyrics, so you would really need to listen to them!! Go ahead, they're wonderful!
Mest - "Living Dead"
Sum 41 - "Motivation" and "In Too Deep"
New Found Glory - "Head on Collision" and "The Story So Far"
Blink 182 - "Please Take Me Home"
John Mayer - "Love Song for No One"
Something Corporate - "Fall"
Guster - "Rocketship"
Our Lady Peace - "Do You Like It"
Trik Turner - "Friends and Family"
Lil' Keke - "Platinum in the Ghetto" (that one's just fun!)
Sensefield - "Save Yourself"
David Gray - "Be Mine"
Aqualung - "Brighter Than Sunshine"
Better Than Ezra - "Lifetime"
Mest - "Rooftops"
Phantom Planet - "One Ray of Sunlight"
Sarah McLachlan - "Push"
I chose these songs because of the lyrics, so you would really need to listen to them!! Go ahead, they're wonderful!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
LISTEN TO ME!!!
I was listening to the Bobby Bones Show this morning and I only caught a glimpse of this one segment and it was them giving off their three favorite songs...or something like that and it got me thinking about what my favorite songs are. I love listening to music, so it's hard for me to narrow down what my favorite songs are.
So I decided to share the list with you all that I came up with. These are in no way in any particular order because I love them all. I tried puting them in groups, but I couldn't do that. I know there are more songs out there, but this was just me brain-storming at work, if I were to sit down at home with lots of time...I could come up with some more songs...so here it is for now.
Becky's List of Top Songs!!:
"Ice Ice Baby" - Vanilla Ice
"Just Like Heaven" - The Cure (The Goldfinger version is awesome too)
"Hands Down" - Dashboard Confessional
"So Long, So Long" - Dashboard Confessional
"Push" - Sarah McLachlan
"I Shall Believe" - Sheryl Crow
"Always on Your Side" - Sheryl Crow
"Season" - Good Charlotte
"Faithfully" - Journey
"Jack and Diane" - John Mellencamp
"Do I Have to Say the Words" - Brian Adams
"With or Without You" - U2
"You've Lost that Lovin' Feeling" - Righteous Brothers
"Chcolate" - Snow Patrol
"I Want to Hear You Sad" - The Early November
"Mr. Jones" - Counting Crows
"Straight Up" - Paula Abdul
"Cover Girl" - New Kids on the Block
"Every Rose Has it's Thorns" - Poison
"Here I Go Again on my Own" - Whitesnake
"To Be With You"- Mr. Big
"Going Nowhere" - Oasis (and Wonderwall was awesome too)
"Killing Me Softly" - The Fugees
"Tears in Heaven" - Eric Clapton
"Walk on the Ocean" - Toad the Wet Sprocket
"Head On Collision" - New Found Glory
"Paul Revere" - Beastie Boys
Now I know there are plenty more...especially when it comes to Rap or R&B, but this is just the basic list for now. I hope you take some time to listen to some of the songs that you don't know...so that you can see why I like them!!
So I decided to share the list with you all that I came up with. These are in no way in any particular order because I love them all. I tried puting them in groups, but I couldn't do that. I know there are more songs out there, but this was just me brain-storming at work, if I were to sit down at home with lots of time...I could come up with some more songs...so here it is for now.
Becky's List of Top Songs!!:
"Ice Ice Baby" - Vanilla Ice
"Just Like Heaven" - The Cure (The Goldfinger version is awesome too)
"Hands Down" - Dashboard Confessional
"So Long, So Long" - Dashboard Confessional
"Push" - Sarah McLachlan
"I Shall Believe" - Sheryl Crow
"Always on Your Side" - Sheryl Crow
"Season" - Good Charlotte
"Faithfully" - Journey
"Jack and Diane" - John Mellencamp
"Do I Have to Say the Words" - Brian Adams
"With or Without You" - U2
"You've Lost that Lovin' Feeling" - Righteous Brothers
"Chcolate" - Snow Patrol
"I Want to Hear You Sad" - The Early November
"Mr. Jones" - Counting Crows
"Straight Up" - Paula Abdul
"Cover Girl" - New Kids on the Block
"Every Rose Has it's Thorns" - Poison
"Here I Go Again on my Own" - Whitesnake
"To Be With You"- Mr. Big
"Going Nowhere" - Oasis (and Wonderwall was awesome too)
"Killing Me Softly" - The Fugees
"Tears in Heaven" - Eric Clapton
"Walk on the Ocean" - Toad the Wet Sprocket
"Head On Collision" - New Found Glory
"Paul Revere" - Beastie Boys
Now I know there are plenty more...especially when it comes to Rap or R&B, but this is just the basic list for now. I hope you take some time to listen to some of the songs that you don't know...so that you can see why I like them!!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Sneezing
Because I don't know how to put a video up on a blog I'm sending the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3TnQ16leUE
I love this clip of Dane Cook, I've watched it a couple times and I think it's great.
Yes, it has a couple cuss words on it, but just pretend like they're not there.
But all you out there who hear "God bless you" after someone sneezes it's because ONLY God can "bless" you...no one else has the power to bless, just "The LORD".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3TnQ16leUE
I love this clip of Dane Cook, I've watched it a couple times and I think it's great.
Yes, it has a couple cuss words on it, but just pretend like they're not there.
But all you out there who hear "God bless you" after someone sneezes it's because ONLY God can "bless" you...no one else has the power to bless, just "The LORD".
Monday, September 11, 2006
Give Me Some Credit
I think I must keep my self confidence in a box hidden in my closet because it's never around when I need it. I have my moments of feeling inadequate when it comes to my job and to other aspects of my life. But when I take that step back...I see how much I really do have things under control.
I have been a complete wreck when it comes to this program I'm starting at work. I haven't been able to please everyone (and that drives me up the wall), I don't feel like I'm doing things right, and I just don't think I'm accomplishing anything that needs to get done.
I met with my "boss" today and he set me straight. I was looking at what I do and you know what...sometimes I just amaze myself at how well I do with what I'm given. I need to just give myself a pat on the back and tell myself that I'm doing the right thing and everything will turn out. I can't help it if parents aren't as dedicated to church as mine were and don't get their kids here. It's NOT my problem. They are the ones that will have to deal with it in the future.
My support system here just seems kind of hidden at times. It's not like when I was living at home and my parents were always telling me how well of a job I was doing, I'm not surrounded by the positive energy that I once had. Peanut shows her affection when I walk in the door, but utltimately I have to be the one that keeps me going and energized about what I do every day.
Yes I have people here that tell me I'm doing a good job, but it's not daily, it's just when they see me do something they approve of. But I'm just as guilty, I don't always go up to everyone I know and give them a pat on the back just for the heck of it. Maybe that's something I should start doing though. Just go up to people and tell them their doing a good job...we'll see...
I have been a complete wreck when it comes to this program I'm starting at work. I haven't been able to please everyone (and that drives me up the wall), I don't feel like I'm doing things right, and I just don't think I'm accomplishing anything that needs to get done.
I met with my "boss" today and he set me straight. I was looking at what I do and you know what...sometimes I just amaze myself at how well I do with what I'm given. I need to just give myself a pat on the back and tell myself that I'm doing the right thing and everything will turn out. I can't help it if parents aren't as dedicated to church as mine were and don't get their kids here. It's NOT my problem. They are the ones that will have to deal with it in the future.
My support system here just seems kind of hidden at times. It's not like when I was living at home and my parents were always telling me how well of a job I was doing, I'm not surrounded by the positive energy that I once had. Peanut shows her affection when I walk in the door, but utltimately I have to be the one that keeps me going and energized about what I do every day.
Yes I have people here that tell me I'm doing a good job, but it's not daily, it's just when they see me do something they approve of. But I'm just as guilty, I don't always go up to everyone I know and give them a pat on the back just for the heck of it. Maybe that's something I should start doing though. Just go up to people and tell them their doing a good job...we'll see...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Maybe This Year Will be Better Than The Last...
I'm going to copy a little from Lauren's post because it triggered some feelings that I've been having as well.
I took this line from "Long December" and have used it in many different ways. I had a friend that was killed from drinking and driving in High School and I put this in a card to his parents, I've also used it in just letter's to friends or in passing of aquaintances.
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
~ Counting Crows
It's so simple, but so hard at times. We always think we're always going to have these "moments", that they'll never leave us. We (or I) don't think about the little things as they're happening. They don't even have to be these amazing moments, they could just be getting a starbucks with a friend or meeting up with a family member at a bar, or watching the stars while laying on the roof. I know I appreciate all these actions, but do I really "take it all in"? I don't know, I would like to think I do, but I just don't know.
Even with my job, I know I won't be here at this place for ever, but am I really soaking up every detail of the good times? I know I'm not, because I just alway assume there will be a next one and so I don't really think about it.
What does it take to actually think about holding on to these "moments"? What do we do with these moments in time? Webster defines a moment as: a point of time. That's all it is, is a point of time. We can't really save time or make it longer, it's just there. We need to be aware of these moments and cherish them. We should never take our time here for granted. Even little simple activities are here for us and we should appreciate them.
So when a breeze hits your face, or a friend wants a coffee, or a friend needs a ride...any little thing. Stop and breathe it in and be happy to do it because it may not always be there.
A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven'
Now the days go by so fast
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should
Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should
~Counting Crows
I took this line from "Long December" and have used it in many different ways. I had a friend that was killed from drinking and driving in High School and I put this in a card to his parents, I've also used it in just letter's to friends or in passing of aquaintances.
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
~ Counting Crows
It's so simple, but so hard at times. We always think we're always going to have these "moments", that they'll never leave us. We (or I) don't think about the little things as they're happening. They don't even have to be these amazing moments, they could just be getting a starbucks with a friend or meeting up with a family member at a bar, or watching the stars while laying on the roof. I know I appreciate all these actions, but do I really "take it all in"? I don't know, I would like to think I do, but I just don't know.
Even with my job, I know I won't be here at this place for ever, but am I really soaking up every detail of the good times? I know I'm not, because I just alway assume there will be a next one and so I don't really think about it.
What does it take to actually think about holding on to these "moments"? What do we do with these moments in time? Webster defines a moment as: a point of time. That's all it is, is a point of time. We can't really save time or make it longer, it's just there. We need to be aware of these moments and cherish them. We should never take our time here for granted. Even little simple activities are here for us and we should appreciate them.
So when a breeze hits your face, or a friend wants a coffee, or a friend needs a ride...any little thing. Stop and breathe it in and be happy to do it because it may not always be there.
A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven'
Now the days go by so fast
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should
Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should
~Counting Crows
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Love to Listen
I am just so excited that there are so many great songs on the radio now. I feel like we had been going threw a dry spell for sometime, but there are just so many great new songs out there. Last night while I was driving back from San Antonio I didn't even have to put in a CD because every time I would change the radio station, a good song was on. I usually have to listen to a few CD's on that drive because nothing I like is ever on...whew...I love it. Plus today, it hasn't gotten warmer than 72 degrees (I don't know what's going on), so I drove to work and back for lunch and back to work with the window's down. I LOVE driving with the windows down. I even got a little chilly...
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you?
That I'm in love with you?"
~The Cure
On another note...life is good. Changes are in progress and I have things to look forward to.
I got to spend a few nights at home, which was nice because I won't get to do that for a while now. Did LOT'S of bonding with the brother's, I was even brave enough to go and talk to this guy from back hom that I've had a crush on for a while. It really wasn't anything, I just think he's pretty cute, and I never talk to him because well...I'm a chicken and he's a few years older than I am. But I sucked it up and we talked for a good 30 minutes, nothing special, but at least I can't say that I didn't do it. Hopefully that'll make me brave enough to do it again...maybe not with him, but just with guys in general. I'm trying to step out of the box.
My mom made me clean out my room at their house because she wants to do some rearranging...so I had to go through about four boxes of stuff (aka: Crap). I'm such a saver, I so much silly stuff in those boxes. But I found old pictures and back packs and year books...it was a little easier to throw some of that stuff out than I thought...so now I need to try and do that here in Georgetown, I have so much "STUFF" that I don't need and it just sits around collecting dust. Hopefully I can make myself sift through all the stuff I don't need. I think it'll just freshen things up a bit.
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you?
That I'm in love with you?"
~The Cure
On another note...life is good. Changes are in progress and I have things to look forward to.
I got to spend a few nights at home, which was nice because I won't get to do that for a while now. Did LOT'S of bonding with the brother's, I was even brave enough to go and talk to this guy from back hom that I've had a crush on for a while. It really wasn't anything, I just think he's pretty cute, and I never talk to him because well...I'm a chicken and he's a few years older than I am. But I sucked it up and we talked for a good 30 minutes, nothing special, but at least I can't say that I didn't do it. Hopefully that'll make me brave enough to do it again...maybe not with him, but just with guys in general. I'm trying to step out of the box.
My mom made me clean out my room at their house because she wants to do some rearranging...so I had to go through about four boxes of stuff (aka: Crap). I'm such a saver, I so much silly stuff in those boxes. But I found old pictures and back packs and year books...it was a little easier to throw some of that stuff out than I thought...so now I need to try and do that here in Georgetown, I have so much "STUFF" that I don't need and it just sits around collecting dust. Hopefully I can make myself sift through all the stuff I don't need. I think it'll just freshen things up a bit.
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