Oh my goodness my heart hurts so much right now and I am just so confused about life right now.
I've never been real open about my feelings. I usually just end up making an idiot of myself and so I try and stay away from sharing things. That way...I don't get hurt, right? Well, what am I supposed to do if after a week of knowing someone they want me to pour my heart out about what I'm thinking? Conversations like that just scare the heck out of me. But I was brave...I said what I felt, but I'm so scared that I was too late in it. But really, was I? After a week? I haven't even met the guy. Yea, I mean, I think about him constantly and I can't fall asleep until I talk to him. But I didn't want to be that obsessive little girl that just falls for someone so fast.
But I do. I fall fast...and hard sometimes.
I just want to feel normal...I haven't eatin in weeks, my stomach always hurts, I feel like I'm going to cry if just the slightest thing happens. Apparently I am just very emotional right now. What a girl.
It's weird to think...I'm having all these feelings and I feel weird for having them. But am I making someone else feel the same way? I don't want to cause this type of discomfort on someone else.
I just need a good hug and a strong shoulder....
You know what...in my other blogs, I kept saying he's not typically someone that I would ordinarly want to be with. But I've never really shared my feelings with someone...and I think this could be something awesome. I believe that God makes people meet for a reason. God wanted me to meet him and we did. It's like that Weezer song: "I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me".
I sure hope he calls tonight!
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
I want to scream but not make a sound
It's amazing all of the different reactions I get from people when I tell them about this guy from Detroit. People my age are a lot more understanding and excited, but whenever someone older hears about it it's always..."he's too much to handle", "that's dangerous", or "I think it's stupid to have someone so far away, what's really going to happen."
I think I'll just go with the flow and do things my way.
I had dinner with Lauren last night. Awesome time. I forgot how great it was to have a discussion with someone close to my age. I consider myself real close with my old roommates from college and all, but with Lauren, I can actually TALK to her and not feel judged and she actually gives fantastic advice and a good ear. I never really got that out of my old friends. They were too involved with themselves that it didn't really matter what was going on in my life. Anyways...it's just so nice to have someone like that close by.
Things are getting heated up here at work too...we had some distruction take place this weekend and so I actually left the office for a couple of hours just because I was so scared that someone was going to yell at me and that I would cry. So I got out of there as quick as I could. It was a nice little break. I think I should start doing that anyways...just leave and relax and come back and work. Maybe that's something I need to look into.
"Cause when I'm in over my head I hear the words you said
That someone out there's listening to the same song
Feeling the same way that I do.
Make me a believer pick up the receiver
And tell me you feel just like I do."
-Better Than Ezra
I think I'll just go with the flow and do things my way.
I had dinner with Lauren last night. Awesome time. I forgot how great it was to have a discussion with someone close to my age. I consider myself real close with my old roommates from college and all, but with Lauren, I can actually TALK to her and not feel judged and she actually gives fantastic advice and a good ear. I never really got that out of my old friends. They were too involved with themselves that it didn't really matter what was going on in my life. Anyways...it's just so nice to have someone like that close by.
Things are getting heated up here at work too...we had some distruction take place this weekend and so I actually left the office for a couple of hours just because I was so scared that someone was going to yell at me and that I would cry. So I got out of there as quick as I could. It was a nice little break. I think I should start doing that anyways...just leave and relax and come back and work. Maybe that's something I need to look into.
"Cause when I'm in over my head I hear the words you said
That someone out there's listening to the same song
Feeling the same way that I do.
Make me a believer pick up the receiver
And tell me you feel just like I do."
-Better Than Ezra
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Flushed
I haven't gone a day without talking to this guy from Detroit. It's awesome...it's so nice to have someone to talk to about life. I learn something new about him everyday, it's not always good, but at least I know what I'm dealing with. Not typically someone that I would really want something from, but I just think he's amazing.
I HATE talking like that though. I haven't even met him. What if he turns out to be this weirdo, you know? Right now in my head he's just this great guy, but as I've said before...I'm probably setting myself up for dissapointment. But that's another problem I have to deal with. I ALWAYS tend to find something wrong with anyone that I meet. I think I'm just scared of "falling". But right now...I can't even eat. It's ridiculous. I get nervous talking to him on the phone and I don't know how to relax myself. I guess I'm still just pretty excited about the whole thing. But then I don't know what this is leading to....
He's 1500 miles away for goodness sakes. What's going to happen between two people that live so far away? I mean sure, we can visit each other...but really, is there more. I don't think I could move up there if something were to happen...would he really want to come to Texas? I need to quit living in the future and just be happy with what I have right now.
I HATE talking like that though. I haven't even met him. What if he turns out to be this weirdo, you know? Right now in my head he's just this great guy, but as I've said before...I'm probably setting myself up for dissapointment. But that's another problem I have to deal with. I ALWAYS tend to find something wrong with anyone that I meet. I think I'm just scared of "falling". But right now...I can't even eat. It's ridiculous. I get nervous talking to him on the phone and I don't know how to relax myself. I guess I'm still just pretty excited about the whole thing. But then I don't know what this is leading to....
He's 1500 miles away for goodness sakes. What's going to happen between two people that live so far away? I mean sure, we can visit each other...but really, is there more. I don't think I could move up there if something were to happen...would he really want to come to Texas? I need to quit living in the future and just be happy with what I have right now.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Lock-in, Get out, Go sleep
I just got through my first lock-in at this church. It was both amazing and distructive. But all in all, everyone had an excellent time. We had some college kids come in and play games with the youth for a while and that was good because I didn't have to plan anything and then the rest of the time they played hide-n-seek in the dark hall ways.
I was informed that I will be getting chewed out tomorrow because we knocked some ceiling tiles out while playing that night...but there's nothing I can do about it, so I'm not going to worry about it.
On another note, I've been talking on the phone with this guy from Detroit everday so far. It's till rather exciting. We had a conversation about being truthful last night. I was just saying that I have to be suspicious about guys...he could be a 40 year old guy that prey's on younger girls and I wouldn't know any better...he explained that he would never try that hard to meet someone and how would I be able to explain all the pictures of him on his profile. Anyways...I know I'm a very trusting person...but I totally believe the guy.
He sent me 6 cd's in the mail too. He special made everyone of them. Isn't that sweet. I thought so too.
After talking with him a while, he probably isn't someone that I would necessarily want a relationship with because of things he's done in the past. But he sounds like he's growing up and is a better person for making mistakes. But again, that could just be me trusting this guy. I guess I'll just keep taking precautions.
I was informed that I will be getting chewed out tomorrow because we knocked some ceiling tiles out while playing that night...but there's nothing I can do about it, so I'm not going to worry about it.
On another note, I've been talking on the phone with this guy from Detroit everday so far. It's till rather exciting. We had a conversation about being truthful last night. I was just saying that I have to be suspicious about guys...he could be a 40 year old guy that prey's on younger girls and I wouldn't know any better...he explained that he would never try that hard to meet someone and how would I be able to explain all the pictures of him on his profile. Anyways...I know I'm a very trusting person...but I totally believe the guy.
He sent me 6 cd's in the mail too. He special made everyone of them. Isn't that sweet. I thought so too.
After talking with him a while, he probably isn't someone that I would necessarily want a relationship with because of things he's done in the past. But he sounds like he's growing up and is a better person for making mistakes. But again, that could just be me trusting this guy. I guess I'll just keep taking precautions.
Friday, April 22, 2005
Brave Little Toaster
Well, I did it.
I called the guy in Detroit. I was so brave, I couldn't believe it, I just picked up my phone and called. It was so easy. (Not really, I was so nervous). He didn't answer, but he called back about 15 minutes later. We ended up talking for about two hours. It was amazing.
Turns out he has this amazing job with General Motors. He travels alot and one of the things he has to do is drive celebrities around in their vehicles so that these famous people are seen in GMC vehicles. He get's to drive Hummers and Yukons and Envoys. Here's a few of the people he's gotten to drive around: Paris Hilton, Nicole Ricci, Taryn Manning, Shannon Elizabeth, Erika Christenson, Paul Walker...and there's plenty more. How awesome is that job. I think that would be so neat to just drive around all these awesome people. Most of them even tip pretty awesome.
I was so intrigued the whole time. I wish he didn't live 1500 miles away. That is Very Very Very far. But he said he plans to come to the Austin area sometime soon to visit some friends (and of course me) and he also offered to buy me a plane ticket to Detroit to come see him...but only after he's come down here first. Which is good, I don't think I would want to be the first to fly anywhere. I'm still just so excited about this whole experience. He tells his friends about me! That's nice. But I'll just play it out and see how things go.
Well I'm off to go home and take a nap...I have an ALL night lock-in with some Middle schoolers tonight.
Peace
I called the guy in Detroit. I was so brave, I couldn't believe it, I just picked up my phone and called. It was so easy. (Not really, I was so nervous). He didn't answer, but he called back about 15 minutes later. We ended up talking for about two hours. It was amazing.
Turns out he has this amazing job with General Motors. He travels alot and one of the things he has to do is drive celebrities around in their vehicles so that these famous people are seen in GMC vehicles. He get's to drive Hummers and Yukons and Envoys. Here's a few of the people he's gotten to drive around: Paris Hilton, Nicole Ricci, Taryn Manning, Shannon Elizabeth, Erika Christenson, Paul Walker...and there's plenty more. How awesome is that job. I think that would be so neat to just drive around all these awesome people. Most of them even tip pretty awesome.
I was so intrigued the whole time. I wish he didn't live 1500 miles away. That is Very Very Very far. But he said he plans to come to the Austin area sometime soon to visit some friends (and of course me) and he also offered to buy me a plane ticket to Detroit to come see him...but only after he's come down here first. Which is good, I don't think I would want to be the first to fly anywhere. I'm still just so excited about this whole experience. He tells his friends about me! That's nice. But I'll just play it out and see how things go.
Well I'm off to go home and take a nap...I have an ALL night lock-in with some Middle schoolers tonight.
Peace
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Daydreaming...
Just got back from a Youth Director's meeting in San Marcos. We discussed our part in College Ministry and how we should developing our youth in our church to better prepare them for going to college and continuing their faith. College seems to be a time where we turn away from our Faith and focus more on school/boys/girls/grades/parties...etc. But in all seriousness, that is the time when we need God in our lives the most. Sad to say that we don't realize that until after the fact. I was one of those people...I never really turned from my faith, but I definitely made my friends and activities my priorities instead of helping out more in the ministry. But it takes some of us longer to mature and realize how we need to rearrange our lives. I didn't want to be labeled a "Jesus Freak" in college so I strayed away from it so that I could go out with my friends and have a good time on any day of the week. But I think we need to make our own mistakes in our lives so that we can learn from them and mature.
I hate that now as an adult I can see how right my parents were and still are. We hate listening to them...but they really do know what they're talking about. Aaaaaaugh. I find myself relating more and more with my parents and being able to actually talk to them about stresses that I have about life and my decisions. It's an awesome feeling.
On another note...I got an email from tht guy in Detroit...he wrote me and told me that he was at a game last night and caugh himself smiling a few times because he was thinking of me. Isn't that sweet? I don't get many compliments like that...at least not anytime recent that I can think of. What a great feeling. I even catch myself waking up in the middle of the night because I'm so excited that I'm going to get to talk to him when I get to work. I sure hope I'm not setting myself up for disaster...but I'm so giddy right now. I'll just have to keep a positive, yet cautious, attitude about it.
Tomorrow is my Junior High Lock-in and I am so excited yet so worried. I haven't stayed up late in a while...much less all night. I sure hope I can make it. I'll just have to drink a lot of soda and eat a lot of sweets. Awesome...it'll be great. No Worries. (right)
"We sit around the house
Waiting for the phone to ring
And I know she alone holds the key
To everything I want to be
Aw yeah, alright, truth hurts inside
Aw yeah, that's right, you go around once in life
Everybody wants to be your friend
When you've got something you can give them
All I've seen, bad and good, she's not crazy
Just a little misunderstood."
-Better Than Ezra
I hate that now as an adult I can see how right my parents were and still are. We hate listening to them...but they really do know what they're talking about. Aaaaaaugh. I find myself relating more and more with my parents and being able to actually talk to them about stresses that I have about life and my decisions. It's an awesome feeling.
On another note...I got an email from tht guy in Detroit...he wrote me and told me that he was at a game last night and caugh himself smiling a few times because he was thinking of me. Isn't that sweet? I don't get many compliments like that...at least not anytime recent that I can think of. What a great feeling. I even catch myself waking up in the middle of the night because I'm so excited that I'm going to get to talk to him when I get to work. I sure hope I'm not setting myself up for disaster...but I'm so giddy right now. I'll just have to keep a positive, yet cautious, attitude about it.
Tomorrow is my Junior High Lock-in and I am so excited yet so worried. I haven't stayed up late in a while...much less all night. I sure hope I can make it. I'll just have to drink a lot of soda and eat a lot of sweets. Awesome...it'll be great. No Worries. (right)
"We sit around the house
Waiting for the phone to ring
And I know she alone holds the key
To everything I want to be
Aw yeah, alright, truth hurts inside
Aw yeah, that's right, you go around once in life
Everybody wants to be your friend
When you've got something you can give them
All I've seen, bad and good, she's not crazy
Just a little misunderstood."
-Better Than Ezra
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Whatever I feel like I wanna do, gosh!
So I broke down and washed my truck yesterday afterwards and I woke up this morning to rain. That really bothers me. I just wasted $9 on a good washin' and the rain just ruined it. I should have known better.
As some of you already know...I shop on ebay A LOT. I just got two cd's in the mail yesterday and they're great. I got Closer by Better than Ezra and Here's to the Mourning by Unwritten Law. I really like BTE so I'm glad I got that cd to at to my collection.
I've noticed that I have been doing puzzles lately. I'm working on my third 1,000 piece puzzle since last weekend. I'm pretty good at puzzles, but now I just feel worthless because I lock myself in my apartment and do puzzles. I feel like I'm going to be that grouchy old lady that lives alone and has a bunch of cats when I get older. I can't be that lady. I guess I'll have to work on that.
I also have this delima. The guy from Detroit gave me his phone number so that I would call him. I HATE calling people...especially boys and especially one's I don't know. I told him that he would have to call me first if he wanted to talk. But then he said that I am going to be the one that has to make that first phone call. Aaaaaaaaaaugh. I'm going to need some strength and courage to do that.
I guess I'll go get some work done.
Becky-Out.
Still I couldn't get arrested
Though I got more hooks
Than Madonna got looks
And just like that AC/DC song
Come on baby, shake me all night long
-Better Than Ezra
As some of you already know...I shop on ebay A LOT. I just got two cd's in the mail yesterday and they're great. I got Closer by Better than Ezra and Here's to the Mourning by Unwritten Law. I really like BTE so I'm glad I got that cd to at to my collection.
I've noticed that I have been doing puzzles lately. I'm working on my third 1,000 piece puzzle since last weekend. I'm pretty good at puzzles, but now I just feel worthless because I lock myself in my apartment and do puzzles. I feel like I'm going to be that grouchy old lady that lives alone and has a bunch of cats when I get older. I can't be that lady. I guess I'll have to work on that.
I also have this delima. The guy from Detroit gave me his phone number so that I would call him. I HATE calling people...especially boys and especially one's I don't know. I told him that he would have to call me first if he wanted to talk. But then he said that I am going to be the one that has to make that first phone call. Aaaaaaaaaaugh. I'm going to need some strength and courage to do that.
I guess I'll go get some work done.
Becky-Out.
Still I couldn't get arrested
Though I got more hooks
Than Madonna got looks
And just like that AC/DC song
Come on baby, shake me all night long
-Better Than Ezra
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
You and Me
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
-Lifehouse
I ain't no Holla back girl
So the past few days have been pretty awesome. I hate to be that person that talks about someone that I don't even know...but this guy that I've been talking to from Detroit really just makes me smile. He's very genuine in our conversations. It really just brightens my day when I see that he sent me an email. He even made me some cd's and is sending them to me right now. That's pretty sweet.
Usually I wouldn't go on about things like this, but it really makes me happy. He's even willing to talk about his faith and about how he wants a family some day. Most guys aren't that comfortable talking about that, but he is. I don't really want to think too much into this because he is a couple thousand miles away...but it never hurts to dream.
Other than that, I really don't have anything exciting going on in my life. I'm pretty uneventful at the moment because I spend most of my time talking to this guy.
Whatever.
"So that's right dude, meet me at the bleachers. No principals, no student-teachers. All the boys want to be the winner, but there can only be one. So I'm gonna fight, gonna give it my all. Gonna make you fall, gonna sock it to you. That's right I'm the last one standing, another one bites the dust. A few times I've been around that track. So it's not just gonna to happen like that. Because I ain't no hollaback girl. I ain't no hollaback girl." -Gwen Stefani
Usually I wouldn't go on about things like this, but it really makes me happy. He's even willing to talk about his faith and about how he wants a family some day. Most guys aren't that comfortable talking about that, but he is. I don't really want to think too much into this because he is a couple thousand miles away...but it never hurts to dream.
Other than that, I really don't have anything exciting going on in my life. I'm pretty uneventful at the moment because I spend most of my time talking to this guy.
Whatever.
"So that's right dude, meet me at the bleachers. No principals, no student-teachers. All the boys want to be the winner, but there can only be one. So I'm gonna fight, gonna give it my all. Gonna make you fall, gonna sock it to you. That's right I'm the last one standing, another one bites the dust. A few times I've been around that track. So it's not just gonna to happen like that. Because I ain't no hollaback girl. I ain't no hollaback girl." -Gwen Stefani
Monday, April 18, 2005
Busy, Busy, Busy
I ACTUALLY GOT TO DO STUFF THIS WEEKEND!!!!
I don't think I've done something three days in a row since I graduated college. I am such a nerd, but seriously, it was so nice just to get out for a while.
Thursday I got to go have dinner with my fantastic friend Lauren. We had an absolute wonderful time. We were gone to try and be fun and go to 6th street, but just ended up driving around listening to hip-hop. I don't think I've had that much fun in a long time.
Friday, I met my friend Courtney at the outlet mall in San Marcos...she met me 'half' way to bring me my bridesmaid dress for her wedding. I tried it on and it looks ridiculous. I ordered the smalles size they make and it's still bulky. Oh well. I'll get it fixed.
Saturday, I went to San Antonio to my Aunt's house. She was having a bar-b-que for fiesta. Just a nice time to sit around, eat, drink and play. It was nice to see my extended family. I didn't get to see any of them over Easter.
I've found myself thinking a lot about this guy that I met online. I hope it's not something I have to worry about. I think it's just nice to have someone to talk to or just think about. My brother definitely didn't like the idea, but oh well. I found myself making excuses over the weekend to come into the office to check my email and write him back. Well...I guess I'll go get some work done.
"Girls. Get your hair fixed. Get your nails done. Put your hands up and say "OK!". 'OK'. 'OK'. Get a drink, get another one, make him pay for it." -I don't know, but I just heard it and it was in my head.
I don't think I've done something three days in a row since I graduated college. I am such a nerd, but seriously, it was so nice just to get out for a while.
Thursday I got to go have dinner with my fantastic friend Lauren. We had an absolute wonderful time. We were gone to try and be fun and go to 6th street, but just ended up driving around listening to hip-hop. I don't think I've had that much fun in a long time.
Friday, I met my friend Courtney at the outlet mall in San Marcos...she met me 'half' way to bring me my bridesmaid dress for her wedding. I tried it on and it looks ridiculous. I ordered the smalles size they make and it's still bulky. Oh well. I'll get it fixed.
Saturday, I went to San Antonio to my Aunt's house. She was having a bar-b-que for fiesta. Just a nice time to sit around, eat, drink and play. It was nice to see my extended family. I didn't get to see any of them over Easter.
I've found myself thinking a lot about this guy that I met online. I hope it's not something I have to worry about. I think it's just nice to have someone to talk to or just think about. My brother definitely didn't like the idea, but oh well. I found myself making excuses over the weekend to come into the office to check my email and write him back. Well...I guess I'll go get some work done.
"Girls. Get your hair fixed. Get your nails done. Put your hands up and say "OK!". 'OK'. 'OK'. Get a drink, get another one, make him pay for it." -I don't know, but I just heard it and it was in my head.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Telephone
Well the guy from the mail store called me today.
Turns out that he just decided to not be a youth minister anymore and start a church. God told him to. I was a little blown away, but if that's what he feels God wants him to do, then I say go for it. Well, he decided he'll just stop by the church for a little visit. So he came and we chit-chatted for about half an hour. He seems nice enough. I think he's a little young though. He graduated high school in 2003...and he graduated early, so what that's like 4 years younger than me. I guess I shouldn't be picky or anything...but that's younger than my little brother. But we may still "hang out" sometime.
He wanted me to catch a movie with him and some friends tonight. But I actually have plans tonight...(with Lauren)..and that is going to mcuh more fun. Maybe I get a new friend out of it. We'll see.
As for the guy in Detroit...... :)
Turns out that he just decided to not be a youth minister anymore and start a church. God told him to. I was a little blown away, but if that's what he feels God wants him to do, then I say go for it. Well, he decided he'll just stop by the church for a little visit. So he came and we chit-chatted for about half an hour. He seems nice enough. I think he's a little young though. He graduated high school in 2003...and he graduated early, so what that's like 4 years younger than me. I guess I shouldn't be picky or anything...but that's younger than my little brother. But we may still "hang out" sometime.
He wanted me to catch a movie with him and some friends tonight. But I actually have plans tonight...(with Lauren)..and that is going to mcuh more fun. Maybe I get a new friend out of it. We'll see.
As for the guy in Detroit...... :)
Sunny Side
I got a phone call from my high school youth sponsor yesterday, she owns a mail shop and so she meets new people everyday. Well she calls to tell me that she found me a new friend. (yea, for me) Well she said this guy walks into her store and she starts to "chit-chat" with him because she said he was cute. Well turns out that he is also a youth minister...lives in Georgetown, but works in Temple. Well she goes off on the fact that the youth minister at her church is new and young and doesn't have many friends and that he should be my friend. (like that's not embarassing for me). He was like...oh, that's nice. Well he comes back to her store later on to leave his name and number for me to call him. WHAT? So she asked me to call him so that I could have someone to hang out with. Who does that? Well....I told her I would call him. And I did. But he didn't answer, I just left him a message saying that I'm the girl the crazy lady in the mail store was talking about....he has yet to call back. But I'm interested to see if he does.
On another note, I was recently introduced to this website where put your profile on it and it's supposed to help you "make new friends and stay in touch with old ones." Anyways...I've been getting emails from all these random guys. Well...One of these guys is from Detroit Michigan and we ended up talking on the IM for like three hours yesterday. It was pretty neat. I always thought it was weird to meet people on the internet, but now that I've actually done it, I'm a little excited about it. I couldn't sleep last night because I was excited to see if I would get to talk to him today. I'm such a corny little girl.
Hopefully I get some work done today. It's been ridiculously busy here this month and it's only going to get worse.
"Grab your coat and get your hat. Leave your worries on the doorstep. Life can be so sweet. On the sunny side of the street. Can’t you hear the pitter-pat. And that happy tune is your step. Life can be complete. On the sunny side of the street" -Louis Armstrong
On another note, I was recently introduced to this website where put your profile on it and it's supposed to help you "make new friends and stay in touch with old ones." Anyways...I've been getting emails from all these random guys. Well...One of these guys is from Detroit Michigan and we ended up talking on the IM for like three hours yesterday. It was pretty neat. I always thought it was weird to meet people on the internet, but now that I've actually done it, I'm a little excited about it. I couldn't sleep last night because I was excited to see if I would get to talk to him today. I'm such a corny little girl.
Hopefully I get some work done today. It's been ridiculously busy here this month and it's only going to get worse.
"Grab your coat and get your hat. Leave your worries on the doorstep. Life can be so sweet. On the sunny side of the street. Can’t you hear the pitter-pat. And that happy tune is your step. Life can be complete. On the sunny side of the street" -Louis Armstrong
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Song in my Head
I always seem to wake up with a song in my head. I don't know why but as soon as my alarm goes off, there is a song that I'm singing in my head. What's weird is that it's usually not a song that I've recently heard. This morning's song was "The Humpty Dance" by Digital Underground. Now that is a song that I have not heard in a very long time. But there I was...singing it. I even remembered some of the verses. Odd.
"All right! Stop whatcha doin' 'cause I'm about to ruin the image and the style that ya used to. I look funny but yo I'm makin' money, see so yo world I hope you're ready for me. Now gather round I'm the new fool in town and my sound's laid down by the Underground.... The Humpty Dance is your chance to do the hump. Do the Humpty Hump, come on and do the Humpty Hump Do the Humpty Hump, just watch me do the Humpty Hump Do ya know what I'm doin', doin' the Humpty Hump Do the Humpty Hump, do the Humpty Hump"
I don't know where that came from, but as soon as I woke up...there it was.
If you haven't noticed. I've been pretty busy. I feel that I haven't been in the office in a week. And that's almost true. I've been to seminars, I've ben on trains, I've been hiking, it's just been non-stop for me. Which is nice, I guess. At least I'm not sitting around the office waiting for something to happen. I have a couple of lock-in's at the end of the month that I am beginning to prepare for. That should be good times. I just got a phone call from my Junior High Sponsor. He's getting married (after being divorced for a few years) and wants to step down from doing all these events with the youth. I think it's good for him, he's been doing this for years. I'm a little worried because I never had to worry about my Junior High kids because he ALWAYS took care of them. It's going to be crazy, but hey....Bring it on.
Also, if anyone is curious...I still haven't heard back from "the guy". Maybe that long phone call is the only thing we'll ever have. (Yes, I tried to make that sound corny.) Whatever, we're still good friends. That'll just have to do....for now.
"All right! Stop whatcha doin' 'cause I'm about to ruin the image and the style that ya used to. I look funny but yo I'm makin' money, see so yo world I hope you're ready for me. Now gather round I'm the new fool in town and my sound's laid down by the Underground.... The Humpty Dance is your chance to do the hump. Do the Humpty Hump, come on and do the Humpty Hump Do the Humpty Hump, just watch me do the Humpty Hump Do ya know what I'm doin', doin' the Humpty Hump Do the Humpty Hump, do the Humpty Hump"
I don't know where that came from, but as soon as I woke up...there it was.
If you haven't noticed. I've been pretty busy. I feel that I haven't been in the office in a week. And that's almost true. I've been to seminars, I've ben on trains, I've been hiking, it's just been non-stop for me. Which is nice, I guess. At least I'm not sitting around the office waiting for something to happen. I have a couple of lock-in's at the end of the month that I am beginning to prepare for. That should be good times. I just got a phone call from my Junior High Sponsor. He's getting married (after being divorced for a few years) and wants to step down from doing all these events with the youth. I think it's good for him, he's been doing this for years. I'm a little worried because I never had to worry about my Junior High kids because he ALWAYS took care of them. It's going to be crazy, but hey....Bring it on.
Also, if anyone is curious...I still haven't heard back from "the guy". Maybe that long phone call is the only thing we'll ever have. (Yes, I tried to make that sound corny.) Whatever, we're still good friends. That'll just have to do....for now.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
What is it?
I'm getting kicked out of my office after lunch today so the Bishop can use it for personal meetings. How awesome that I just get half a day off. I'm excited to just do nothing.
"Every rose has its thorn. Just like every night has its dawn. Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song. Every rose has its thorn." -Poison
"Every rose has its thorn. Just like every night has its dawn. Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song. Every rose has its thorn." -Poison
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
It's a Beautiful Morning
The last five days have just melted together it seems. I have not been this busy in such a long time. But they were all super fantastic.
I saw some college friends of mine on Saturday at my old roommates wedding shower. It was just awesome to see those girls again...half of them I had lived with at some point in time and just haven't seen them since I moved up here. We just sat around and drank plenty of momosa's.
This Sunday was also the day I had been waiting for..."the guy" came down to do a concert for some of the Austin area High School Youth. He was amazing. I knew he would be great, but he was wonderful. I actually got to talk with him a bit, but his mother came and she's great, but that made it a little more difficult to talk to him. I ended up going to the movies with him and his mother afterwards. I sat in between them and had both of them leaning over me to talk to each other....nice. Oh well, I think that was a big step for me just to do something with him outside of work and church, even if his mother was there. I'm sure she was enjoying it more than I was because she desperately wants me to marry him. Anyways...I call him last night! I wanted to thank him again for coming down and doing the concert for me and to thank him for letting me tag along with him and his mother to the movies. Well, we ended up talking for almost an hour. I was thinking I would say my 30 seconds worth of "thank you's" and that would be it, but he just kept talking about all kinds of stuff. It was nice....I don't think I had ever talked to him that much before in my life. But I was definitely proud of myself for making that phone call.
I also got to go to Texas Lutheran University...my old Alma Mater for a convocation. It was nice, I didn't recognize many of the people. But I got to see some staff that I used to drink with and some more old friends. I just love running into people that I hadn't seen in a while.
"What a beautiful morning in my life, The best in life is free, I give it all away, And I wonder what more is to come; And this beautiful morning changed my mind, Believe me when I say, the shadows fading out....
As the day grows bright, we are turning pages, and we write new chapters of our lives, Some are strong and long, Others weak with sorrow Keep the focus on the rising sun (what a golden day)" -Ace of Base
I saw some college friends of mine on Saturday at my old roommates wedding shower. It was just awesome to see those girls again...half of them I had lived with at some point in time and just haven't seen them since I moved up here. We just sat around and drank plenty of momosa's.
This Sunday was also the day I had been waiting for..."the guy" came down to do a concert for some of the Austin area High School Youth. He was amazing. I knew he would be great, but he was wonderful. I actually got to talk with him a bit, but his mother came and she's great, but that made it a little more difficult to talk to him. I ended up going to the movies with him and his mother afterwards. I sat in between them and had both of them leaning over me to talk to each other....nice. Oh well, I think that was a big step for me just to do something with him outside of work and church, even if his mother was there. I'm sure she was enjoying it more than I was because she desperately wants me to marry him. Anyways...I call him last night! I wanted to thank him again for coming down and doing the concert for me and to thank him for letting me tag along with him and his mother to the movies. Well, we ended up talking for almost an hour. I was thinking I would say my 30 seconds worth of "thank you's" and that would be it, but he just kept talking about all kinds of stuff. It was nice....I don't think I had ever talked to him that much before in my life. But I was definitely proud of myself for making that phone call.
I also got to go to Texas Lutheran University...my old Alma Mater for a convocation. It was nice, I didn't recognize many of the people. But I got to see some staff that I used to drink with and some more old friends. I just love running into people that I hadn't seen in a while.
"What a beautiful morning in my life, The best in life is free, I give it all away, And I wonder what more is to come; And this beautiful morning changed my mind, Believe me when I say, the shadows fading out....
As the day grows bright, we are turning pages, and we write new chapters of our lives, Some are strong and long, Others weak with sorrow Keep the focus on the rising sun (what a golden day)" -Ace of Base
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